Back on tour!
Friday, January 22, 2010 at 09:06PM Well over the last week I have been totally engrossed in the book and I tend to find my inspiration late at night which is normally when I blog and so I have fallen asleep many times with my laptop in hand, and waking up in some awkward position, and thankfully I have auto save on my writing or I would have lost so much work.
So I am back on tour!!! Whoohoo… and back on a bus, With Dee the driver, Ryan the tour manager, and Steve the videographer… I have to say it's great to be back on stage and back doing what I love which is delivering messages to those who need it. Tonights show was fabulous, and it was great to be back. After such a long break I always worry about whether I will be able to deliver the message correctly and accurately and even though I have been chatting with my spirit guides daily because of my book it's very different to talking with spirits and interpreting their messages and delivering them. But tonights show was fine and fun. We had some fun readings and some really serious readings but most of the time they were fun and they helped give closure and peace to so many people even though they didn't get a reading. Because what happens is that so many people can relate to the readings and they pick up messages within someone elses readings. I have to say, I love my work.
Being away on the road, I have a mixture of emotions, I haven't been away for over 6 weeks and in that time period my life has changed and done 180 degree flip, and it's still a transition period. When you leave your loved ones behind and you head away for work for a period of time like this, you have to get into a different frame of mind, for me, there is a shift… I used to watch a TV show in england called Worzel Gummage and it was a scarecrow who used to change heads and he would come to life… I feel I have that life at the moment, I have taken my everyday Lisa head off and put on the 'witchywoo' head and plowed right into show mode and touring.
Previously when I used to tour, I became a little disconnected to the world outside of touring as I would be focused on the work, even though I would call home every night, there would be a disconnect and that was something I was worried about, but this time, I feel that I won't lose that disconnection to the world which is something I am thankful for. I am still very connected and I think this is because I have to stay this way because of my book, which I am enjoying writing.
I also worried about disconnecting with people I love and care about too, but again because of the way my life has changed I have to stay connected and it's great, and of course the phone, emails and webchats are the best thing and me being techie geek helps that!
It's always hard when you are the person who is left behind and the other person is traveling, because you think about what they are doing and how it's going, and actually wondering if you are missing out and what is happening while they are away, but in reality, as the person who is traveling, we are thinking exactly the same about them, and really if they knew what was going on they wouldn't worry because it;s a routine, of eat, sleep, work, eat, sleep, work…
So I want to take this time to express my love for those who are helping me, and for those who I have left back on the west coast and know that they are always on my mind and I am looking forward to being back and picking up from where I left off. Touring this way is certainly going to help me maintain the life with my son, friends and family that I have loved over the last few weeks!
Thanks everyone for helping me be back on tour and for being so nice and embracing my gift in the way that you do.
Don't forget the members meet and greet is BEFORE the show, so check my site for details!
Much love
Lisa xx
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Lisa
I jus got home from your show in Schenectady Although I wanted so deeply in my heart to get a reading and did not I came from your show feeling uplifted. It has been 5 years for me and I just feel all the steps forward I have taken in thie grieving process some how I got knocked back because I feel like I did in the begining of this process wondering how I can go on. So many unanswered questions so many whys and if onlys? I wish we could go to heaven for visits and then return back to take care of our families but people have told me we woud not want to come back. I have gotten signs or at least I believe they are signs because that is what keeps me going. I did at one point think of going to my home in heaven and I got a message ina mirror so I do believe. Can't wait tilll you come east again and perhaps my loved one will make it . Excited about your new TV show on style Love you Lisa and Thank You for agin giving me that boost to go on
Lisa,
I understand this will be a strange request and many people may comment wanting to give their opinions and advice they think may help, but that is not why I'm asking nor what I want or need. I have made my decision; I would just like to know what you have been shown & told during your meditations and readings about the following.
What happens when we decide that we no longer can live the life we have?
I have been struggling with wanting to die for nearly 4 years now, and for a time in my life you were a great friend and we were close friends. However, things have changed for me and I can no longer live this life and have decided to end it. I'm not afraid of death, as a medium myself, I have come to realize that I would be of more good & use to those I do love and care about, (you're still one of those people to me, even though we no longer have a friendship) as you put it "up with them lot up there". I'm emotionally & physically done with this life and just can't live it anymore. I have nothing here that is worth staying for. I hit my "rock bottom", I tried to climb back up, but I've had things happen since the last time I spoke with you that I just can't overcome, and am too exhausted to even keep trying.
Would you please write a blog on what you have been shown via your meditations and encounters with those who have committed suicide and share what does happen to those of us who just can't go on living in this world and just want to ascend to a higher place. Again, I know this comment may prompt others to put their 2 cents in or try and offer solutions, but it is not what I want or need. It's a decision I have been thinking about for a long time now, and I am just finally at the point where I no longer have the desire or even the will to want to live this life any longer. I had to start my life from scratch all over again nearly 2 years ago after loosing everything and have been pretty much homeless for the last 9 months.
I understand this is a delicate subject and one many are uncomfortable even thinking about or discussing, but I trust and value the knowledge you have, and would just like to know...what will happen once I end my life. I know you can't give me an exact answer as everyone's situation is different, but for almost a month I have been asking my guides and angels to show/tell me what will happen and I'm not getting the information. I can still meet a total stranger and give readings just as you taught, and still, just like you, many times am just in awe at how accurate the information is for those who I do read for, but when it comes to trying to read for myself or get answers in relation to this topic, nothing. You and I discussed on occasions how trying to read for ourselves seldom worked or at the time that is what you told me.
So I am asking the one person whose knowledge and information in relation to the spirit world, I respect and value more than anyone for some help in knowing what takes place to those of us who commit suicide. I seldom "beg" anyone for anything, but I am doing it now, I beg of you to blog about your knowledge in relation to suicide.
With much love and respect for you, and missing your friendship more than you can even imagine, but I will be one of those angels in heaven who looks out for you and CB.
Holy cow Lisa, can't believe it, we got a reading OMG....Thank you soooo much.. We are still processing everything but its all falling into place..You hit everything right on...I'll be posting about it soon....Thanks for taking the time away from friends & family to take care of your extended family..I for one really don't know how you do it..You are one special lady..We all need a reality check now and then to keep us grounded..You know what you need to do. Never doubt yourself you have it together...I hope you & Charlie find a special recipe to share when you are grounded :) Oh and by the way you looked great..Loved the hair...Safe travels..Love you bunches,big hugs........mauder
to "Just Me".....I am writing this article to "Just Me'>....I have just finished reading your blog to Lisa, and I can tell you first-hand what happens to the survivors of those who commit suicide....I am asking you , BEGGING YOU, NOT TO COMMIT SUICIDE.... IT IS Very DEVASTATING to those left behind..
I am a mother, 61 years old, my husband is 60 years old....we had 5 children,,, the oldest one committed suicide 2 years ago this week....January 20th, 2008....He was 28 years old, he was the oldest of 5 children... It was devastating for all of us, his brothers and sisters, and for his friends, and for all our extended family members too.. It is something we will NEVER get over.. I am begging you, think of the people you will be leaving behind.. Think of your relatives, friends, and anyone you have ever known.. Because you will be leaving them with devastating grief.. Even Now, after 2 years, it is still unbearable... I'm asking you not to put your loved ones, or family members, or friends or co-workers or even LISA< one of your best friends, I am asking you not to put us through that.... You can't imagine the grief, and the sorrow, and the abandonment that people feel when someone commits suicide.. The questions of "why", are never answered... Because God gave you the Gift of Life, you should not waste that.. and You have the GIFT of doing readings for PEOPLE< why don't you do that for people? Why not share your gift with others, and make yourself useful? It would make you so happy.. .You could make a living at that, and you could do many things in your life, you don't even know what God has planned for you,, But I tell you one thing, my son has gotten messages to us, and he regrets committing suicide, and he is very sorry, but nothing can bring him back. He wasn't even married, he had no kids, but he had friends and family, and a girlfriend, and he was very loved by all of us.. It's just made a hole in my heart, and in our kids hearts, not to have him around,, It is something we will never get over.. and he wasn't living with us, he was living in a different state, but he was lonely, and sad, and he went thru months of not wanting to live, just like you are experiencing, and he was taking medication for depression, and he had a doctor, but the medicine wasn't strong enough, and we found out after he died that he was bi-polar.. also, he thought his girlfriend was breaking up with him. ... but she wasn't.. it was very tragic.. We had to have a funeral for him in our town, everyone came, friends, family members, his work-people, his bosses, his schoolmates, it was very tragic, for us, and our family and the rest of my kids, and for my sister and brother, and their family members too, it affects EVERYONE>.I'm beggin you, no good can come of it... and it was hell to go thru that for us. and also, Lisa has done a blog already about Suicide, and she says that everyone that commits suicide regrets it.. so if you do this, you will see the devastation that you are causing the people you leave behind, and you will regret it. ... You will be sorry that you didnt' continue your life, because you will see the hurt you caused, and you won't be able to fix it. My son communicated to us that he was SO SORRY..but there is nothing he can do , he can't come back, ,, We still live with the pain.. You would be doing a selfish thing if you kill yourself, no good can come of it.. I'm telling you for sure.. DON"T DO THAT.... Keep LIVING< KEEP BREATHING< Because your life will change into something good,,,, someone will come along and make you happy, or you will get a job opportunity, you are not giving yourself enough time.. don't QUIT... there is no reason to quit, you have plenty of time to work things out in your life the way you want to.. I"M SERIOUS>.. You can't leave.. Just think of all the people that would be SO HURT>> you could email me... mpadgett@grics.net
I'm serious.. Just take care of yourself.. try to find little pleasures in your life, try to find people to stay with, and try to find some work you can do... We really need good readers.. You can make a living doing readings on www.Keen.com
and make GOOD MONEY DOING THAT>> That's a good job for you>>> You would be GREAT at that.. Love you,, Sincerely, don't waste your life, and don't hurt people because you CERTAINLY WILL< and God doesn't want you to kill yourself, he wants you to live, we all want you to live.
Mary P
Hi Gerry, If you read this I want you to know this was my 10th & 4th year & I know how you feel about the grief process going backwards..It happened to me this year too..Please know that they are there and they will come through when the time is right..Hang in there it will happen..Sending hugs.....Dianna
to "JUST ME" ...
Please write me or come on here and let me know you are ok>>
After hearing about you, I can't go thru another thing of having something happen to someone.
Just remember, it is so SELFISH of someone to commit suicide... you can't do that, because you will see the hurt you are causing people,,,, it is devastating.. and you would be wasting your life... I am psychic myself, and I can tell you, that if you STAY, you will meet someone exciting, and you will be happy,,, you will have fun again, and you will be glad you didn't end your life.. I am also telling you that we need GOOD READERS.
MaryP
to "JUST ME".....in your Blog, you state that you have come to realize "you would be of more good and use to those you love and care about" if you were DEAD>>>> THAT IS NOT TRUe...If there is people you LOVE and CARE ABOUT< then you would HURTING THEM MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW>>>>THey will be CRYING EVERY DAY,,, they won't be HAPPY about it, they will be DEVASTATED AND SAD, and they will be MAD.. They will feel ABANDONED,,, they will be HURT.. I can't believe that you would hurt people that way... You are not thinking clearly.... There is no good that will come of it. you can't help people more if you are dead... You will be hurting them, you will be leaving a legacy of hurt, and you will be encouraging others to follow in your footsteps, ,, you might possibly be causing others to commit suicide too.
Mary P
Mary P
Lisa will probably delete these posts anyway..Such a shame..i pray for you "Just Me." Lets hope you find the strength to stay on?..Love Stace XXX
Great blog Lisa! Loved it. Sounds like you're very happy at the moment, and that is so wonderful! You sure know how to inspire!! :)
"Just Me" -- I do hope that you'd reconsider your thoughts about taking your own life. I also will pray for you.
Dear Lisa, please could you talk to 'Just Me'. Please could you give your time and friendship to save that one life. I am saying this as a person who lost my brother to suicide.
Please Lisa, please contact her and help her. You do realise that she has been begging for your friendship for quite sometime now. Please help her, Lisa. Because you do know that you can save her. My mother has regretted not helping someone who went on to commit suicide.
Please give her love and your friendship, Lisa. Because the situation sounds very bad. Please talk to her, Lisa, on behalf of this extended family before it is too late.
Lisa, we as an extended family could even help raise money to help 'Just Me' out of her homeless situation. Really hope someone does something to help her.
Feeling very worried about her.
to "Just Me"....I, as a mother, felt bad that I didn't do enough to stop my son from committing suicide.... Everyone that is left behind feels guilt...."survivor guilt".
To the person above who wrote about your brother, I know how you feel.....My son was the oldest of 5 children, imagine how his siblings feel..
We had 4 boys, one girl....they are all in their twenties...my son was 28... He was very smart, had a good job..I can't even talk about it, it's so heart-breaking, he had a lot of options...
He was the oldest.
If you want to write me, my email address is: mpadgett@grics.net
It's a very sad, horrible thing, when someone takes their life,,, there is no way to get around it, it's horrible.
and nothing makes you feel any better. It leaves you "incomplete", it leaves a hole in your heart, you never get over the sadness..It's hard to think that I won't get to see him for the rest of my life. .,and not only that, my other kids have to deal with it too, It's unbearably hard for them too.
we have enough tragedy in this world, without adding more.
I'm begging you Lisa, to write this person.
and to "Just me"<,, I have read books from Mediums who have written on the subject, i.e..they all say that the person who commits suicide regrets it, and feels terrible because of the pain they have caused... Allison Dubois is a famous medium, and she writes about it in her book "We are Their Heaven"... She says their energy is confused and scattered, and they all regret it...
The best thing for you to do , "Just Me" is to take time out to think about what you would be doing to people in your life, if you commit suicide, you are hurting them beyond belief, do you really want them to remember you that way?
There is shame attached to the survivors... they feel guilty, and helpless..and they have an added burden of sorrow that they can't shake for the rest of their lives.. and they have enough in their lives to deal with ,.... don't make things harder for them, think of them .. and you won't do that, don't hurt the people you love. and instead, try to think of your good qualities, and how you can help other people.. You said you are an accurate medium. I would love you to read for me, anytime you want to.
Mary P
At this point, I am so blown away by Just Me's comments, that I am speechless!! Lisa, I hope you know the answer to this one!
Jeanette
Dear 'Just Me', please come here and write and be part of this extended family and allow us to help you and love you.
Please don't do anything to hurt yourself. My brother left us in a sudden way. He was a very handsome boy. But within his heart he was very unhappy. He had noone to turn to. I only know that when you feel like that, don't sit by yourself and think. Let yourself be connected to others and to things that you love. As long as you remain connected, you won't start thinking about such things. Be very gentle with yourself. If you are tired, just sleep for awhile. If you are hungry, just eat something or drink something. Don't think too much.
You have just been blessed with another friend, Mary P, who has just reached out to help you. Accept that friendship, dear. Do everything to keep yourself connected to others right now. We all are here for you.
Lisa , please get in here as fast as possible.In this situation the only person who can help rightr now is You.Poor Mary P and .. and trying so hard to save her.Don't let JustMe's action scar an hurt two other innocent people.
Lisa get here fast.
A prayer for 'Just Me'. May Just Me be protected and looked after. May the new day bring happiness and lovely surprises for 'Just Me'.
'Just Me', please don't be sad. Wish that I could make for you a mug of hot chocolate and give you a hug and let you know that tomorrow you will feel better. Today has just been a really hard day for you.
Please take each day one baby step at a time. Don't worry about anything. Get plenty of rest today. Wish that I could say the right thing to help you feel better.
JustMe please remember every life in the world is unique and important.
By taking your life ,you will feel that you are free from this world.But You would hurt so many by doing so.By living you would be able to make so many people happy by the path choose.Please do not deny some other soul the pleasure and joy of getting to know you.
Please live.
It's the middle of the night for Lisa right now... she won't see these messages for a good few hours, so nothing can be done at the moment.
God bless all of you for caring so much.
Hugs,
Jeanette
"Just me" i feel for you right now..I really do..But we all need to remember, Lisa isn't responsible for this person actions...I am a bit saddened this has been seen in such a public way.
"Just Me" I don't have the words...it is just so devastating to read your post...know only that you are loved and needed...please seek help, just someone to talk to and as said in the previous post...I hope on waking, that you will start a new and better day and know that .. Life Truly is Worth Living...sending you lots of love and hugz...
Lisa I'm so glad you are enjoying your tour with an abundance of happiness and contentment...you are loved by all and I'm sure your family and friends miss you just as much as you miss them !!!
I am very excited about your new book !!! Can't wait to read it....
Enjoy the tour, wish I was with the girls when they see you !!! Have fun !!!
Love and hugz
Sharon xx
Stace, I quite agree with you, everyone at the end of the day is responsible for their own actions and their own lives. I too am saddened that this plea has been made so publically.
Hugs,
Jeanette
hi lisa, i saw your show in wa australia and what a show that was. you were amazing... please tell me you will be coming back!!!!!!
"just me" wow i wasn't expecting to read something as bad as your post.... i have felt like you lots over the years but i have gotton over it and got back on that saddle. you don't realise how much of an inpact you have on peolpe. you are loved by lots of people.
i do have my own children and famly and a good network of friends yes, but it doesn't come easy. i have to work bloody hard to keep them.
my life is'nt plain sailing by any means but can you tell me who's is, we all have issues!!!!!
come on hun, move forward from this and start a new. if you need to chew my ear of then please do.... were all here to help. your not on your own. xxxx
lisa come back to australia!!!!!
hugs
heidi xx
Sounds like you are in a good place,very grounded. Love Raccaxoxoxo
to "Just Me"....
I am crying right now just thinking about this....and you are not thinking clearly, you know,,,,but no matter what pain you feel, just keep hanging on..
Get yourself some sleep, get some food, listen to music, watch TV, just do anything you can to get relax and get your mind off things... People here would love to be friends with you... you can write us about your problems and we will help you...
I want you to think of this scenario..... Our son (who lived in Virginia) was going to come home to visit us, (in Illinois) ... he prepared for the trip, he got his teeth cleaned, he had his car checked out, he said he was going to come home for awhile, he had a great performance evaluation from his job and got permission to go on a "leave" for stress...he was very happy about that, then something happened... he thought his girlfriend didn't want to see him anymore, he got very sad and depressed....he went to a motel the next day, and stayed in the motel all day just thinking, he was very sad and upset... meanwhile, a job recruiter was trying to get ahold of him for a new job, a more enjoyable job, and my son didn't know that, and he stayed in the motel all day, and then he drank antifreeze..this was on a Saturday.... The cleaning lady found him the next day on a Sunday.... Here at home, we didn't know what had happened... the police came to our house Sunday night, and told us our son was dead.. they said he drank antifreeze.... We were shocked, couldn't believe it, and we had to notify our other 4 kids, who were away at college, etc, and working in other towns. We had to go get them, and have a funeral.. We had to pick out a casket, we had to have our son buried... It was devastating. His bosses came, his friends came, they were devastated too... His brothers and sister ached and cried...they had to come home for several weeks, We didn't even know if they could go back to school....My husband and I had to have all our son's clothes and belongings shipped here to our house, and then we had to go to Virginia to go to Probate Court, and fly out to Virginia to get his car...and there was a lot of things to go thru,, all very hurtful... Think of your family, your friends, think of who would find you, think of what they would go thru when notified, It is unbearable.. I cried constantly, and every single day, for a year. .and even the 2nd year, it's unbearable...Imagine what your family and friends would go thru, and it really is unbearable. Do you really want them to go thru that?
People here would be glad to be friends with you.
I have read Lisa's book, "Life Among the Dead"..
She may have mentioned you in the book, although I don't remember your name, but I know you were a good friend of hers... If so, that means she truly cares about you, because she cares about all her friends, and we know you are gifted..
You are blessed with a sublime gift, and you are special... You won't be happy if you commit suicide... You won't be happy in the afterlife. you would be sad.
I'm asking you to please stay here with all of us, and let us get to know you, and be friends with us. So many of us would like to know you... and see you as you are, because you are a beautiful person. I know that from reading your comments. and your spirit guides won't tell you what suicide is like after you die, because they don't want you to do it..
You may be sad, but your life is not over.. You have many opportunites that you don't know about yet.. Just give it a chance.. My son had many options, his girlfriend tried to call him the next day, but it was too late... she was devastated when the police went to her house, and showed her a picture of him dead, She had to identify the picture. I want you to know he could have married her, and had kids. He could have had a better job, and he would have loved it.. He was making a lot of money, his job was stressful though, and he was tired of it.. .They gave him a 60-day leave, and said they would give him $85,000 to come back ... He wanted a different job though, he was very smart.. He had a lot of options, if he had not given up, he would have had a good life..
I'm so sorry to tell you about this, but it's very sad. I don't want the same thing to happen to you.. You have a good spirit, don't let the sad parts of life get you down.. Things will get better... Things WILL get BETTER.. Mary P