You can't fight your feelings
Tuesday, December 29, 2009 at 11:03PM I want to say thank you for supporting my last blog, about the changes in my personal circumstances and the ending of my marriage with Kev. It has been a tough road and of course it's not over yet, but with strength, love and support you can get through anything.
When I wrote this, I was so tired and actually fell asleep as I was finishing up and so I have to apologize for one of the sentences, I can't even remember what I was trying to say, but when I read it today again... I laughed... I am sure I fell asleep due to carrying the weight of the news and then I released the pressure and that was it... boom asleep.
So I want to continue on from there as I know at least 3 more people who are also going through breakups and it's never easy to go through this. I actually spent a lot of time on the phone today with someone who is going through exactly the same thing, and while it's hard to face, it's also something that needs to be faced and dealt with and also especially now as we approach the new year.
We are entering into a new year but also a new decade and one that is going to be spiritually enlightening and also powerful and the unions and connections that we make now are going to be incredible and powerful and I do believe that over the next year or two, the world is going to change in so many ways and we are going to be enlightened. I don't know what warrants my feelings for this but I do know that it's something that I feel.
The universe has a plan, for us all, we determined our destiny before we came to the earth plane and we set contracts out for us to fulfill while we were here, we may think that we have a plan... but actually the universe holds all the knowledge and will only show it to us when we need it. Today was one of those times for me. The plan came and hit me between the eyes... boom... and I have to say that I didn't like it one bit... but the more I saw it and thought of it and then questioned it the more I understood it and accepted it. I'm still not liking it, but that is MY deal, it's my emotions that are getting in the way of that. But I can see why the plan had to happen this way. I realize that it is giving me the space and time that I need to complete things that I started and when they are finished, then things will be back on track... and I know it's only a short period of time in the whole grand scheme of things, but it doesn't stop that initial hurt that you feel and I know that the feelings I have at the moment will change.
But these feelings for me are good... it's helping me grow its helping me acknowledge certain things in my life and with this, it's enabling me to look at things differently. I am being put into a situation that I cannot control and I don't like my feelings, but I am learning from it. I am now giving in to the universe as I know it has the answers and what will be will be...
Our feelings are important to honor, we have to. I have to honor my feelings just like everyone. There is nothing wrong in a good cry, and trust me it was something that I needed to do, and in many ways I often think I torture myself with this, as I play songs that are important to me, but while I was walking the dogs this evening, I realized I wasn't actually torturing myself, what I was going was honoring my feelings, and getting in touch with my emotions and allowing my self to heal from this. It was important for me to do. But in doing this and having this situation in my life that I can't do anything about, has inspired me to be creative.
I am finally sitting back down at the piano and playing, I am back to writing my book, I am helping Charlie release his emotions for things as he sees me doing the same. It's a period of growth, strength and courage.
This is the way I have to look at it. So you have to realize that we all have emotions that we don't want to face, I certainly do, because even though I knew my issue was going to happen (downfall of being a psychic!) I didn't want to accept that it could be a reality, I know that I will grow from it. Yes it hurts... jeez it hurts but I have completely fallen into that emotion and with that had to flip it around and make it into a positive.
And as my grandmother used to say, Everything turns out in the wash, and I know it will, I will keep that faith and when the time is right, somewhere down the road, the pieces of the jigsaw will fit together and everything will be fine and dandy and delicious! :)
So if you are going through change, know that it has to happen, the universe's plan is coming out and that it's meant to happen, we chose this course and that we have to honor and embrace it and know that everything will be fine.
Surround yourself with people you trust and friends.
Much love, and plenty of hugs
Lisa xx
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Lisa, I love you and what you bring to peoples lives and I send you my thoughts and love xx thank you for being you.
You did it again! There is nothing more to say but, Happy New Year! :D
My blessings are with you and CB. I wish I could be of help and support to you as I once was. I am still here for you, giving you that support and healing energy, I'm just in the background now. Just waiting for your forgivness and than maybe a second chance. Please Lisa, dont' throw are friendship away because of a bad time we were both going through. OUr paths collided and I don't feel like we have finished our life business together. I am continuing to grow and change so that when we do meet again,you wont recognize the person in front of you.
Keep your chin up and know you are doing the right thing, and don't forget to have that "good ole belly laugh everyday".
(((((((((((((((((((((Lisa)))))))))))))))))))) Your heartfelt blog here moved my heart to tears. I am so sorry for the changes in your life, the sadness your heart is feeling and hope "tomorrow" brings much joy, peace and contentment to you.
Thank you, Lisa, for always sharing your heart, thoughts and feelings with us.
XOXOXOXO
Beautiful thoughts. We are most certainly at a point of heightened learning.
Postive change is seldom comfortable, at first.
Lisa thank you for all your givin' and i wish for you both and kevin the best learning and bless . Is part of this plan of learning . love patricio .
You are such an inspiritation. I needed to read this right now, thank you so much. Wishing you the best that life has to offer. xxx Huge hugs. xxx
Erin and Steve Pavlina decided to part ways and she wrote in her blog that life was allowing her to rewrite the next chapter. They both have web site /blogs and the seperation insipires me, as they both are writing about how they are rediscoving themselves, what they like do and dont like as well as exploring new adventures.
I am sure you will get 'to write' a new exciting chapter in your life.
In the meantime, I send you lots of strength and love.
♥♥Theresa NZ♥♥
I am sending you lots of loving light. You are doing the right thing. Feeling the feelings. The only way out is through. You need to work through all the feelings and it hurts! But, one day it won't hurt as much.
((Hugs))
Linda
There is a saying "the only way to get tough is to wressle with a tough opponant". Many times I find that to be true with emotions, events, with life itself. This is the time of growth for you, growing hurts, but in the end just like the Butterfly, you will break open the coccoon of pain and become what you are meant to become, a new you! My heart is with you and Charlie! I wish you both a Happy New Year!
I totally understand, having been through this myself in the past...such a range of emotions but know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel...it is hard to see at the time, believe me, I know but your Granma is right !!!
People come in and out of your life for a reason and that is happening now for you...that you are even sharing and helping others whilst suffering through your own difficulties and heartache, is meant to be and a blessing for you all...there will be good days and bad days...just one day at a time is all you can do and remember that it will all be, as it should, when it is meant to be...
Sending you love and hugz and thinking of you ...
Sharon xx
((Big loves)) xxxx
Stay strong for you and your love ones!!! Grandma is right - it all turns out in the wash....one needs to remember that there is always a bright side to everything. Positive thoughts yield positive results.
I am so sorry to hear to hear this news. Feelings are odd things - i can whole heartedly appreciate your feelings as regards your life pathway and what this will bring but the feelings that some have about their pathway and purpose in life cause destruction and loss. I know that if my sweet darling daughter had not fought her feelings over that last twelve months, there would ave been one less place to set at the dining table this christmas. So feelings can be confusing and i am patiently waiting for the mist to lift on life's pathway to show my daughter which is the right path to follow - hopefully lisa, we will share the same enlightenment that you have and we will carry on living happier, fulfilled lives. Thank you for sharing all your thoughts and feelings and i will remember you all in my prayers ..... God Bless x Michelle x
God you are so inspirational! I am always in awe of your strength, of how you try and find the positives in everything. You are amazing. I think change is a big thing about this new year, for all of us.
Here thinking of you and forever inspired,
Krystal
x
After reading everyone's response to your blog, I'm not quite sure what to write, as they seem to say it all.... Good luck to you, Charlie & Kev in whatever you do and whatever life throws at you. You are a fighter and will come out the other side a stronger, wiser person. If only we were mates, as a Pom in Australia I really miss having a good old chin wag with my Stourport mates and that includes a good laugh and a cry when I need it. We met at the end of your Melbourne show and I chatted with your mum & dad. Whenever you come back to Aus you are coming to my home and we will take you on a good old Aussie barbie to see the roos & emus, so make sure you bring Charlie, he would get on great with my eldest son Dan..... You are a great person Lisa, always remember that xxxx Karen xxxx (Say Hi to Jackie if she remembers me....)
Wow!... Lisa, you are one amazing woman! I'm not sure what to say really! But just keep riding the rollercoaster of life!! You will be out of the dark tunnel soon. Just hold on and be strong.
I'm guessing that last blog you wrote would have been so hard..so tiring.. There is no wonder you fell asleep!! Good on you for having the courage that you do. Look after you and Charlie...
Thinking of you.
Xoxo
"Everything turns out in the wash"... I like that. Know that there is always going to be much love and much support for you and for CB, even by those who don't always get to be around.
To all, I say... 2010... Bring it on!...
Lots of Love xx
I hope all your Angels and guides are helping you get through this emotional time in your life. Be easy on yourself and take each day at a time.
Lisa you are so precious to our world. I want to thank you for your blog. Even as you go through difficult times you are able to see things as they are, filtering out drama and negativity, and convey your emotions and thoughts in a positive and uplifting way. That is not easy to do. You're an inspiration. An angel once told me to stay strong and believe. I am happy to have met her and pray she continues to do the same. My heart goes out to you, Charlie and Kevin. May you be surrounded with much love and friendship as 2010 reigns in!
I just want to say, lots of love and light to everyone..Love Stace XXX
Dearest Lisa,
We are constantly learning and growing and evolving, and from having just finished reading your book, what you are going through now does not seem that much different to the battles you went through to get to where you are now, so I have every confidence that you will come out smiling and happier and all the wiser. Reading your book has shown me how much you have grown and learnt over the past 36 years or so. You have achieved so very much and have so much to be proud of. The many lives that you have touched alone make you an immensely special human being, please don't ever forget or lose sight of that. Also, you and Charlie make such an awesome pair... I am so touched by the loving words that you write about him, as well as the beautiful photos that you have of him and you in your book. The first photo of him when he was just two weeks old... those beautiful enormous eyes that stare out at you with infinite wisdom... he is just absolutely awesome. Thank you again for sharing your life story with us. I was so touched and have now lent your book to my 20 year old godchild, Roxy, who I feel desperately needs some spiritual guidance in her life. I am hoping that her life will change as much as mine has since knowing you and going on my spiritual journey.
Please never forget that there are so many of us rooting for you and loving you, even although we know you have some awesome close friends by your side always. We all know that you are human just like us, but we also know that you are a special and beautiful soul who has helped thousands.
Hugs and blessings to you and your beautiful Charlie,
Jeanette
(Another long blog, I am sure... what else is new!!)
Lisa I know you are so brave and that you will be fine but as you said you need to honor your emotions and you have the right to be in pain to let go of it.
This is a very difficult moment for you and Charlie but indeed you have many friends around. Indeed the universe has a plan and I'm sure you will only be better then. But it's true that letting go of the past and memories is so hard.
It is really unfair that you have to suffer from what you give, love and light but what can you do ...
I send you my dearest thoughts and lots of courage Lisa.
Love,
Lise
Dear Lisa:
I am so glad to hear your positivity so soon. Your healing process has already begun! There are gifts in all situations no matter how painful they initially may be. We truly heal when we can recognize these gifts and put things into proper perspective. But it does take time. So please be patient and kind with yourself. And your transformation will be amazing! Know you are very loved. <<<<<Hugs>>>>>>>
kat
OK. As we say here, I'm preaching to the choir, but create, Sweetie. Create. Piano. Books. Lectures. Shows. Product.
Through Creativity I'm healing myself. The more I create, the faster the healing. Amazing! Take the time. Everything is unfolding in the perfect time. No matter what we think is best ( ha! I had one of those meditations, too). ( God give me patience and give it to me quick!)
2010 is going to be a magnificent year.
So glad you got to Las Vegas. So glad you have Charlie. So glad for Jonesy.