How was I supposed to motivate and inspire others if I could't drag myself out of this? How could I write when I just didn't feel like it? The truth was I couldn't.  So why I am telling you this… when this is supposed to be inspirational… well… I wanted you to see that we are all human and that we all have issues even people like me who inspire others to lead a spiritual life.  

We have pain, fear and upset in our lives.  It's never going to go away. I know that.  You have to face things.  It's like that pile of bills that sit there until you deal with them, they are not going to leave.  So its how you face things, its how you deal with it.  For me it was my thinking. 

We all have these crazy thoughts in our minds that tell us all sorts of irrational things… and we start to believe them. We start to think that our thoughts are true… and then when we start to believe them, we start to manifest it… it's a vicious circle… a cycle that I have pulled myself from.  So I named my voice in my head 'Veronica' I realized when Veronica was coming out to play and I stopped. 

I noticed when Veronica was having a two year old tantrum, I noticed when Veronica just wanted to eat for comfort, I noticed when Veronica wanted to switch on every form of technology to escape the world that was going on around her… But what I, Lisa, was missing was being present!

I wasn't present, I was focused upon the past, the future but not the NOW! 

I had to change my thoughts, I had to stay focused and present… I had to change those thought patterns… but when you are so deep within them, how do you do that? DETERMINATION knowing that you have to make the change or everything that around you is going to suffer.  Finally the jolt came… I dropped Charlie off at school, I was consumed with a thought… and irrational one at that, and I looked at Charlie walking to the playground and I rolled down my window, "Hey monkey… whats up?" He looked sad… "He said you never told me that you loved me and you are grumpy."

Done deal… the thoughts had to stop.  Every time I had that negative thought, I had to stop… When I came back from the UK, the last purchase I made was a bracelet with the word 'Love' on… and that helped me to remind myself that I needed the love… not from someone else, because I know I am loved immensely, but from me.  It was about me. You may feel it's selfish.  That bracelet became my savior.  When I had that negative thought, I looked down at my wrist and reminded myself that I should change my thoughts and love myself I couldn't just rely on those who loved me. 

So I did. It was a gradual process, and not an easy one, and also hard for those around me, but being authentic was important.  I had to be true to myself. Teaching my Advanced Mediumship Class was the turning point… I didn't hide, I was true to myself.  If I wanted to cry, I cried, If I wanted to laugh I laughed.  If I wanted to say something, I didn't fear what would come out, I just said it… it was so freeing… it was incredible. 

I have continued to think this way… since then, and I now feel great… I have noticed the change in me and I know others have too.  Was it easy… no, did I need to change my thoughts… yes… and I'm happier now… Indeed I am. 

I sat on the beach tonight watching Charlie as he frolicked in the ocean… and realized that kids remain present MOST of the time… and when I say MOST of the time, it was because as I was helping him with his Math tonight, he wasn't present… I had to send him out of the room to compose himself and come back present… and when he did he sailed through his work.  But lets look at kids, when they play they are present they are in the moment, enjoying themselves.  We can learn so much from them. 

I watched him and the only thing that was distracting him was the fact that his shorts were constantly sliding down his bum… he was always pulling them up… hehe… it was so funny… but that didn't spoil his enjoyment… far from it… he ran and swam and dived and plunged in the ocean, without a care in the world.  He does that quite often, playing in the ocean and I have taken to going to the beach WITHOUT my phone and being present.  What an amazing feeling not to feel to be present… because lets face it… other peoples drama can wait… we have to live life!  It's about being in the moment and enjoying what we are experiencing… not what our life could be like… it's about NOW… and knowing that we are in the right place at the right time… 

Letting go of controlling things and being vulnerable… opening yourself up to possibilities and allowing life to unfold in the way that it's suppose too… and you know what… I have done this and I am happy beyond words.  I have amazing people in my life and I am grateful. I am grateful for the work that I do, and the people who support me… I am just grateful for what I have and for those who love me unconditionally… I don't need to mention them, because they know who they are and that is all that matters… and this is still about me… no ego… just me feeling good about where I have been, and knowing what I have gone through and where I am now. 

I have seen the light... it's about being present.  Years ago I wanted to leave this world by choice, but now... life is a gift and I am going to live it. 

So when you have moments of darkness… remember that you are not alone… there are so many others that are in the same situation, but it's our thoughts… we just have to change them.  I found what helped me was putting a name to them, Veronica… and then turn to others… let go of pride and ask for help, say you are sorry or just admit that you are wrong… it's amazing when that happens you can see that people want to be there to help you through those tough times…   It's incredible…  I have no problem with saying I'm sorry, or that I am wrong.  People appreciate it, however my biggest issue was telling people what I wanted… not any more… I know what I want, and I am not afraid to say it… I just hope that those around me will cope… hehe… I'm sure the will because they love me unconditionally!!!

When you realize that people DO love you unconditionally then that will help you grow and change, and discover yourself… and then you will not be afraid of who you are.  You need to like yourself… you need to love yourself, because without that, how can you expect others to do that to you.   

It's been an incredible journey and one that I have to embrace and look back on with love, because it's made me who I am… yes it was painful, yes it was hard… but I am happy, and I know I am loved and that is all that I can ask for!

Much love

Lisa xx

Charlie has also been loving it, and even went to school for one day and didn't complain!! haha 

We have spent a lot of time with my family which was wonderful especially my new niece… who is ADORABLE!!! In fact my brother keeps saying that he is shocked at how she took to me… I was chuffed I still had the knack with babies, and I have spent as much time with her as possible and even joked that she is coming back with me and I will teach her the important things in life, which will include sparkles and glitter and 4 inch heels!  On the final part of my trip I have insisted that my brother and his wife have a night out so I really can play aunty… can you tell how much I love this little girl and she has been seriously spoilt… with love of course! She is such a miracle baby too… and very special! 

I had a lovely evening spent with my friends on the Friday and sat up with my oldest friend from school until almost 4 in the morning talking about old times and what we got up to… it's funny how you don't see people or chat with them for ages and then it's like you have never been apart.  Sam is very dear to me as she was the first person who I confided in as a child that I 'spoke to dead people'. She thought it was so cool… and actually I freaked her out a little that night… loll

Then it all started… the madness.  The first show is always crazy, getting back in to a routine again, people milling around, things to be done… your head spins a little and then Ahhhhh… you get on stage and you do what you do… connect! 

The connections were fabulous, and I LOVED every minute of it, there were many readings that touched my heart especially the last one, and they met me after and the wife of the gentleman who had passed away was so lovely… it was just so nice to see how that connection helped ease the pain of her husbands passing. 

It's just been a lovely start of the trip and the weather has been perfect… 

So here I am in Cardiff and looking forward to the show tonight and the connections again.  Staying connected to those who have a special place in your heart is important, even if it's just a text to say you are thinking of them… So stay connected, be happy and believe that life is a great thing and that miracles that can happen. 

With love from sunny Cardiff

Lisa xx

I do, it's something that I have always done.  I used to sit on the train with my friends as we headed in to Birmingham city center (which was a huge adventure) and we used to guess what people did for a living and what their life was like.  It was such a big thing for us… and we loved it.  Who knows whether we were right and who knows whether my psychic side was 'hitting the nail on the head' as they say. 

So today could be that day when you encounter someone and they are a total stranger but they need that encounter with you, or you with them.  It could be that they are having a really bad day and your smile just gave them a glimmer of hope, it could be that they have been missing someone and just for a moment your presence took them away from their heartache.  You never truly know what someones life is like.  

So for today, and if you can make it a habit… smile at everyone you see… even if its a little one… you never know how much it could make their day!  

With love

Lisa xx

Even now my famous karaoke song is Whitneys version of ' Greatest Love of All'.  When I heard of her passing it was a massive blow to us all.  We stopped the DVD we were watching and we stared at yahoo in shock!  Of course Charlie said, "Who is she?" and so that went on to us explaining who she was and how much of an inspiration to us both.  The fact that we were in Beverly Hills at the time that it happened was even more of a shock. 

Of course our thoughts are with the family. 

But the way that life twists and turns you never know what is going to happen.  I deal with grief and death every single day, and all I tell people is that we all have a life plan and that plan is there for us to live.  When our time is up, we will depart this world leaving those we love behind but we will always be around them.  We will heal from things that have happened, see life in a different perspective and grow and learn.  Meanwhile we leave a loss… a void that is so unbearable to many it's hard to wake up some days.  But knowing that our loved ones survive on the other side is a blessing. 

Having that communication and those signs from them is something that we all look for just to put a smile on our face and to know that they are watching us, and to know that they will be there for us when it's our time to cross is a comfort. 

So while the news of Whitney has devastated many, it also highlights those that we have lost, and so just know that you will get to see them again, the sign really is from them, and that you are loved so much by them.  However they would want us to live our life to the max, and enjoy everything that we do.  So remember they are watching you through your life and they want you to be happy, so smile for them and make each moment count!

With love

Lisa xx

This is a time for new possibilities and opportunities.  We make new resolutions and start afresh.  It's a great time to let go of old patterns and start new beginnings.  I love it! It's not always easy for people to do this, but they set intentions for the new year, but it's sticking to it.  So what we need is motivation!

Motivation and determination.  We need to have things to remind us of what our intentions are… you have to do things to help yourself otherwise we slip back into the same pattern.  I'm sure you are the same. The intention is set for a week or so and then it slips and it goes and then before you know it you are back in the old habit and cycle.  So we need to help ourselves stick to the plan and the goal and we can manifest our dreams. 

So think about this… 

You have to work out what type of person you are, i.e.… visual, auditory or touchy feely and then that will help you decide what is good for you. 

This will help you… which phrase do you find yourself saying when you agree or understand what someone is saying to you.

"I see what you mean?"

"I hear what you are saying?"

"I know how you feel"

Now from that you can determine what type of person you are. 

If you say the first you are visual, if you say the second you are auditory and if you say the last you are more of the touchyfeely type.

Now to help you maintain your goals and intentions you can do something to help you, so here's some ideas. 

If you are visual then put up some pictures that will inspire you in places that you spend a long amount of time.  Such as your screen saver could be a picture of when you were thinner or healthy foods, if your goal is to lose weight.  If you want to write a book the create a picture of the front cover and put it up to inspire you.  You will come up with your own ideas but you need something to look at. 

If you are Auditory, then create a playlist of music that will inspire you to meet your goals.  If you want to lose weight come up with a playlist which will inspire you to move your body.  If you want to increase your spiritual gifts, then find some guided meditations that will help you.  Write down some affirmations that you can say to yourself and record them and play them back on your iPod.  You will come up with your own ideas but it will certainly help you. 

If you are touchyfeely, then you need to have something that you can touch and it will remind you of your goals, it could be a swatch of fabric, it could be a bracelet that you wear to remind you, it could be a ring that will remind you of your intention.  You will also find that if you are this type of person you will also be one of the other types too, so don't dismiss them… and do what feels right to you, to help you stick to your goals.

These are just some ideas and it will help but also call upon friends and family to help you do this too… you need support and this is a great time as everyone is feeling the same!

So believe in yourself and know that you can do anything that you put your mind too… so for me I just need to finish those two squares of Cadbury Milk Chocolate that I have hidden and resist any more chocolate!!! I know I can do it!!!

Happy New Year everyone!

Lisa xx

Holly and I had that stress today but it's true as long as you have what is important, who cares if you have enough wine on the table, the decorations are just right, and that the gifts are wrapped in a certain way.  It doesn't matter.  What matters is family and friends and those that you love. 

We live in a world where everyone is spread out all over the place, I know those who are dear to me are, but the world is a smaller place now, with the way of technology.  We can still have that closeness even though you are not on each others doorstep.  

However we do miss those who are no longer with us and it's hard at this time of the year, we want to be around those who we love, and when someone has passed it's even harder, but you have to know and believe that they are still with you.  They are in your heart and your soul and you can connect with them any time.  They will give you signs that they are with you, signs that they love you.  It may not be obvious but they are there and they will be subtle.  When you get a sign and you question it, that is when it's really them.  When you question it, it's a real sign! Thats what I go with and you should too.  

So talk to them and know that they are with you and you can connect with your loved ones any time you need too all you have to do is Believe… like we all believe in Santa!

Sending love for the holidays

Lisa xx

Trust is something that many people have an issue with, and even though this is a small issue, Charlie didn't want to believe us.  Then we had something else which involved a cooking activity at scouts.  If you know anything about Charlie you will know he has to make a big adventure and use his imagination with everything, and he decided that for his cooking badge for scouts he was going to create a make shift rotisserie with a broom stick, over a charcoal fire for a small chicken thigh! Yes his imagination ran away with him, which is fantastic, but when there is limited time and the scout master had already said how they were going to do it, you have to listen.  Charlie had decided that he was going to take his broom handle anyway until I told him that he has to trust us. 

He came back from the day cooking and said, that we were right and that he would have looked silly… bless him.  It was about trust.  

But we all have times where we have to find things out for ourselves, I know I do… it drives Holly mad. Or should I say, it used too, until I had faith and trusted.  Life is so much easier now! :)

The reason why we do this is because we have either been doing something one way for a period of time and it's what we know and feel comfortable with, or that we have been hurt before.  However, to get over this you have to trust and put your faith in someone and believe that it's going to be ok.  When you do that, you start to trust again.  It's not easy and it wasn't for me, and I just had a big lesson in trust myself with something that happened to me, but I trusted Holly and she helped me through it with the help of someone she knew and I can't tell you how much better I feel now that I did that and everything is being taken care of and actually better than I ever imagined. 

Now there are also times that we can be over trusting.  It's about finding an even balance and also trusting yourself and listening to your own intuition.  We all have it and thats what it's there for, to help and guide us along the way.  

So when something comes up, stop and listen to your instincts and believe in yourself and trust what you are getting and then you can start to trust others.  If you have been hurt before, you have to heal and sometimes its those people who you least expect who will help you to start trusting again.  All I am going to say is that things happen for a reason, you may not know the reason at the time, but it will all become apparent, I know it has for me, and it's been the best thing. Wonders never cease!! 

Sending love to everyone 

Lisa xx

Byron Bay was stunning beautiful and so tranquil and quiet, we had a great time, watching Charlie play in the ocean, the dogs on the beach and relaxing and enjoying the simple life.  Even the rain that came didn't spoil the fun, in fact we all looked at each other as we were leaving the cafe and it was poring with rain, and said… THE BEACH! and off we ran.  We ran like little kids on to the beach in the rain… It was just wonderful to have that feeling of being carefree.  Whats a little water, it was cleansing and refreshing! 

Candid shot just after running on the beach!

Then on to the GoldCoast for the Living from the Inside Out Weekend!!! OMG what can I say, it was incredible!  So many people transformed their lives and made "Love is my Intention" their motto for life.  One lady even had it tattooed on her back before we got there.  

It was amazing to see how many people were invested in their own life… they wanted to do something for them, and it was great to be part of that healing and transformative and powerful energy.  The stories that people are sending us, and the changes that they have made are wonderful and so empowering to those who are struggling. 

With events like these, you are not only helping those who are there, attending the weekend, but the ripple effect continues.  They tell their friends and family and they show them the ring and then they start to help others and it continues and continues.  Of course social networking helps and I know "Love is my intention" is splashed all over Facebook at the moment, which is great. 

So what we have to remember is that even though we may be making change and doing something for us, it's also empowering to others out there who are struggling for courage to see someone make change, and transform their life and step into their own power (as Holly says) and then it inspires them to do the same.  Listening to personal stories help with that, and I know that we shared our own with people that helped them realize that they were not the only ones who had had a suffering or a pain or loss in their life. 

So share your experiences in a positive manner and know that you just might be helping someone empower themselves along the way!

Sending love to everyone!

Lisa xx

We took a rental car and headed down the coast to Byron Bay to a little house that we rented about 200 meters from the beach… and it's just what the doctor ordered, for all of us.  Charlie is totally loving the beach and the ocean… he plays for hours in the waves ducking and diving in.  We relax on the beach watching him and the people that are wandering around and taking their dogs, babies, kids for a day on the beach.  It's just totally relaxing.  Being able to switch off is something that I sometimes struggle with.  Normally I wake up and my mind starts going with a million different things that I need to do, but here, it's off.  We don't even have internet or phone access… which I love.  However I know that because of the event we have to find it to ensure that everything is running as it should.

I know I talk about being able to switch off is important, and leaving the technology world behind keeps us in the moment, and it's true, but there are still things that we have to do.  Even though I have switched off for a few days, my mind is still wandering with things that need to be done for the weekend.  I know my mind still wanders back to the house back in LA and the dogs hoping that they are okay and not driving Elvia crazy with their antics. It's very normal to be switched off and still have these things that pop in to you mind, but the difference is, is not stressing about it.  We all have to learn to let things so sometimes. 

Letting things go, especially when you can't do anything about it, is important otherwise it eats away at you, it plays on your mind and it drives you insane.  You become consumed with it.  So we all have to let things go.  If you can't change it then why worry, its energy that could be used elsewhere.  So while I am here, I can't do anything about what is happening at home, all that matters is the here and now, and knowing that I am in exactly the right place for me, and us as a family! So say they say… "Don't worry, be happy!" 

So next time you are worrying over something you can't control, take a moment, breathe and then deal with what you can change and make right and then move forward in a way that makes you feel happy.  

Sending love to everyone from beautiful Byron Bay.

Lisa xx

Heading back to Australia is such a big thing and Australia has a very special place in my heart, I've spent so much time there over the last three years.

We are preparing for the trip and the life changing event that is coming up, but it always takes me back to my own journey - the people who have come in and out of my life, the people who have touched my life and the changes I have made. Life takes you on a journey and no matter how many psychics you go to see there is only so much knowledge you are supposed to know. There are only so many events we can be shown, because the rest is up to us and all the choices we make along the way.

We all have free will, no matter where we go, but there are some things and some situations that are predestined. We have decided to live this life for a reason and when we allow ourselves to be really in touch with who we are we can discover so much. We can uncover the knowledge that we hold within our soul.

You see, we mapped out our life before we were born. We hold all the knowledge we need to lead the life we want; it's just allowing ourselves the ability to do it. So start to meditate and really find the knowledge and the life purpose inside you. It's there for the taking.

I feel like my purpose in life has changed and that I am not only here to help people connect - and I do that in many ways, not only with the other side but I introduce people and I'm the catalyst for so many great friendships - and I am also now starting to help people conect with themselves through the workshops with Bliss and Holly, and also the meditations I'm writing and releasing at the moment.

So take time to connect with who you are, take a moment before you make a decision to really feel if it's the right thing for you. You have the knowledge and you have the power for your own life.

With love,

Lisa xx