Bittersweet moments
Friday, April 23, 2010 at 06:35PM As I sit here at the hospital helping my friend with her illness, what has become apparent is that even though we don't want to consciously face things in life, on a soul level we know things. We battle with our conscious mind and also the soul. Often they battle against each other.
Our soul will say one thing but the mind will tell us something else. We have to nurture our soul and what it wants and knows but we also have to stay in the conscious mind because that helps us make decisions but often those decisions are something that have to come from a soul level.
My friend knows what is happening on a soul level but her mind will not allow her to accept it.
I have to apologize for half posting a blog, as I was writing and then I got called away to help with healing, and so I hit save and I didn't realize it would post... so much for being a techie... haha
But its true what I say here... I have watched my friend over the last few days, consciously knowing that she has to fight this but her soul is ready to leave. Her mind still fights even down to making sure she moves her feet so she keeps the circulation.
However today, was the day that she said, she is tired and she needs to let go, and then gave a beautiful speech to her girls and then asked for us all to be joined together in a circle of love... which got to us all... and then in the her true fashion said, "I have to pee" and said she would continue when she got back... haha
What I have been blessed for is the healing in the room that has taken place, people coming together and supporting each other. It's been incredible.
I have to look at this time of passing as a beautiful moment. Of course there is a tragic side where we can't imagine that we are losing the feisty woman who has fought this battle and we all thought she would overcome it, but it's being able to appreciate and witness the soul transition into the love of the afterlife. Bittersweet really.
I know that many people have had to go through things like this and it's never easy, and of course me writing about it, is actually going to bring back those memories, but this is a time to embrace the good times, think about the memories and know that somewhere our loved ones are watching over us, ensuring that we live the rest of our life in the best possible way.
Thank you for all the love and support, I am sure I will update you more, but we are close to saying goodbye to to one heck of a woman!!
With love
Lisa xx
Reader Comments (43)
Dearest ((((((((((((((Lisa))))))))))))))
I am so sorry you are going thru such a emotional and trying time. My heart is with you and I am sending you an abundance of LOVE to help you get thru this very painful time.
Bless your wonderful heart for being there with her....her soul knows you are there and appreciates all you are doing.
Your so very right re: conscious vs soul level and yes, they most certainly do battle with each other.
Be gentle with yourself ((((((((((((Lisa)))))))))))) and know you and your dear friend are being thought of and sent so much LOVE.
Warm and Fuzzy Hugs
Lori
Sometimes, as humans, we need to give the mind permission to let the soul soar freely. The mind thinks on a mortal level where the soul does not.
God Bless both of you! Hopefully she'll quiet herself and listen to her spirit. Coll
Lots of strength and love - Big Hug!
So well said Lisa, so true on both sides of the coin..I'm sure there are many angels sitting with you & your friend...Hang in there, we love you....Extra big hugs.....mauder
I say a little prayer for you both....
Love and Hugs.... xx
My thoughts and prayers are with you during this time.
The book I am busy reading "Journey of Souls" is teaching me so much about what our soul goes through in between lives and having this better understanding has given me so much peace of mind.
I am truly blessed to have discovered you, Lisa, and this wondrous new journey that I am on. I am sure your friend is much comforted by your presence. May God give you both strength during this time.
Hugs,
Jeanette
My thoughts and prayers are with you both - sending lots of love xxx
Your Friend is so very blessed to have you and you are blessed to have her........
I am holding your heart in my hand and I pray for the highest and best for your friend....
Blessings forever
Hello Lisa
I have shared times of illness with close friends and also shared the gift of their passing. It is quite amazing that you blog about this experience today, as I felt the urge to come to your site as i thought of my own sad experience and the emptiness I hold for not being with someone who needed me at that time.
I read your blog and felt an incredible energy within. A message for me perhaps...that brings some comfort.
As a professional in the music industry in Australia, it is sometimes difficult to allow the self to deal with heartache, its not always the done thing in this world of ours especially in with the media over our heads. :-(
Would love sometime to book in for a reading if at all possible. I am in Australia when you are here in June, and will be in LA in July/August with shows. If not thankyou just the same for your wonderful gift that you share with so many :-)
Take care
love and joy
Keri McInerney
I have held the hand of a few as they took thier last breathe. I know it's a human thing to want to struggle and fight to stay...... but sometimes telling them it's okay to let go helps. I know you being there for her and her family through this transition is the best moral support you could possibly give to her !!!!
And even in knowing it's going to happen... it dont make it less painful or easier to deal with ...... so sending you all my love and strength to get you and her family through this difficult time. Keeping all of you in my heart today !!!!
Atmos xxxxxx
She has good Friends all around here...and she can count on you Lisa (((HUGS)))..
Dear Lisa,
I'm really sorry to hear about your friend.. It's good that she has you beside her. I send her all my strength, comfort and love. I hope soul and mind will come together...
All my love and thoughts to you and your friend,
Lise
(((Lisa))) I know this is a tough time for all of you and just know that I am keeping you close in my thoughts and prayers. You are so right... the soul and our conscious mind go through this process throughout our lives whether we realize it or not. Those souls that have not been awakened in life have to sort of play catch up in the end. This can cause a person to become quite overwhelmed and frustrated during their time of transition. It truly is a spiritual battle and they become quite frustrated, scared, and confused. It is not easy to witness and the best you can do is hold them through it and be a compassionate listener as you are already doing with your heart. Just know that they do eventually make peace with it all. Some take longer than others. Many, many blessings to you Lisa.
Lots of love and angel hugs of protection,
DS
It reminds me of a buddha saying which is 'no living thing wants to die' and so we fight and struggle to stay here. Even if our soul knows our journey is ending, our physical body will fight trying to hold onto what we know and love. It is a true struggle and for those of us who are strong fighters to start with, it is a struggle which can even be more intense.
Help her the best you can but she may fight to the very end. It may also be to show others her true strength and even though she is going on a new journey, she may want you all to know she will never give up and never stop trying no matter where she is.
Much Love and Strength to you
Terra
She is showing you so much...
Love, comfort, peace, understanding & acceptance to your friend & family, friends and to you Lisa.
Andrea
Hi my love,
I am so sorry to hear that your friend is now in the hospital. But the fact that you are there with her must mean the world to her and her family. Do know, my love, that she is in my thoughts and prayers and even though her mind says no I am not ready, you know that yes she is. It must feel so good knowing that what you are doing for her is helping her to make this transition a little easier. Even though you know all that you do I am sure, doesn't make it any easier for you, my love, so you can be assured that you also are in my thoughts and prayers..Just take care of you and know that you being there is all that matters right now You are the best. don't ever forget that.
love to you always,
Mary
I'm so glad she has you there. I'm sure she does know too on a soul level.. but your right it is a constant battle. For family and and friends too. Bless her/him during this time.. may they feel gods grace and healing. Love conquers all things.. I truly believe that. No matter the outcome.
Lisa:
You, your friend and your friend's family are in my thoughts and prayers. Trust that God will know when it's time.
With hope for peace,
Tammy B.
l am thinking of you. xxxxx
Sending prayers and hugs!
I think its easier said than done....our will is strong & our mind can deny our soul's messages. Lisa -- I wish you strength as you care for your friend. I wish your dear friend peace & comfort & release to what she needs to do. Im thinking she is probably very scared right now. You are both in my heart....I knew there was something going on, I felt it the last 2 days. Sending you love, and prayers....and for your friend & her loved ones. xxoo
Oh God Lisa....
Bless your friend and you.... I hope things turn out ok. LOVE out to both of you!!!!!!!!!!!
Lisa, My thoughts are with you all at this confusingly sad time.
Love Julie xx
God bless you Lisa, you help so many people I kow the spirits will now help you.