Only 2 more sleeps!
Saturday, April 25, 2009 at 08:06PM Having left the spa and taken the long drive to York PA ready for the show tomorrow night, it hit me. I now realize how long I have been away and also how much I am now missing my boys, my dogs, my friends, my home and my bed!! ha ha ha It's been 8 weeks, with a few days here and there at home, but living out of a suitcase has done my head in, as they say!
I have 2 more sleeps... and counting and so are the boys. Kev bought me a little gift, it was a sparkly license plate trim which I have had my eye on for a while and it's my welcome home present and now I have a full on, girlie car! whoohoo!
So I arrived in York and checked into the hotel and I was given my room, and it's huge! I mean it's as large as my old apartment!!! I actually called down to reception and asked them if they had a smaller room... I have never done that but this place is huge!!! So I have shut myself in one of the bedrooms (yes I say one of them!) so that I can feel cozy!! I'm not one for rattling round in large spaces on my own, especially when I have been alone so much in the last 2 weeks, I don't need it emphasizing!
I spoke to my parents and they both seem to be moving on after Nan's passing, in a way I know my dad is feeling guilty with the new found freedom, you can hear it in his voice, especially when he tells me what he has done in the day and before he couldn't have done that.
I totally understand but he should not feel guilty and neither should my mom as they have did everything they could to make Nan's life easier in the last 2 years. It will take time to realize that and it's still very raw, so I understand and it's very normal to have these feelings.
It's a learning curve for all of us, as she has only been gone 2 weeks and yet it feels so far away now, but I know that she is in a place of rest and comfort and with my grandfather. I want to thank everyone for all the support over the last 2 weeks, you are all so amazing!
Enjoy your day and have fun...
Lisa xx
Reader Comments (25)
Sweet sleep my dear. You will be home and in the arms of your loves soon.
:)Amy
Aww not long now- you'll be back with your family. How awesome, your hubby is so lovely :-) I'd love to have a sparkly license plate trim! I too have a girly car, pink sparkly seat covers & holagraphic decal stickers haha love it! Hope your next show goes well. Enjoy the peace & quite while you can :-) Have fun!!!! xxx
Too funny about the Hotel room....we would have gladly come over for some bubbly, hehe...
I can imagine how much you must miss the boys and everyone...not long to go now...your number plate sounds cool !!! lolol
Aww your poor Mum and Dad, I understand but it is their time now and your dear Nan would want that and be happy for them !!!
Love to you all ... hugz xx
Hi my love,
Finally you are on your last leg of your journey. Do have a great show tomorrow night. Also have a safe trip home my love. Oh to be in the arms of your Kev and Charlie! They must miss you so much!
The next time you talk to your mum and dad do give them my love. Your dad sounds like he is having a rough time of it after losing his mother. By any means he should not feel guilty about living and doing what he needs to do to heal !
I hope you can get that across to him!
Again safe travels and sleep well , my love. 2 more sleeps and finally you will be headed home.
See you in San Diego on the 1st.
Love you always
Mary
Yes, Lisa, life is all about changes...both good and bad. The void for your parents will be there for awhile, but they will reflect, adjust and life will go on. Happy that you will be home soon and wish we could all have had the party in your hotel room in NY!
As for the girlie car, hmmmm, what could that be???!!!
Hi Lisa,
You have been through it!! I am so glad you will be home to your guys (and your bed!)
I know how you feel about large rooms; too much space to think about! (although...!)
Just give me a hot tub, glass of champagne, and a feather bed, and I am happy!! (well, TV and room service is good too!) Anyway, have fun shows, and soak in all the love you will be given from so many who love you so much!
Take care of your lovely self (and thanks for your kindness!)
Love and hugs,
Cheryl
Hi Lisa,
I would feel lost too in such a huge room!! lol but lots of room for a party hehe
It is strange how we feel guilty. I have just had to deal with feelings of guilt too recently due to a loss and im thinking it is part of the grieving process. It is getting easier :)
Sending much love and peace to you and your parents.
Hope the time goes quickly til you are reunited with your boys and can't wait to see the pic of your new "bling"! lol
Love & Warm Fuzzies,
Vikki (peridot)
Hi Lisa xoxooxo I haven't commented on your blog lately as have been in my down mode tho trying to pull myself back up but wanted to say that I am glad u will be heading back to your boys, the doggies and HOME very soon. I bet u can't wait to be in your OWN bed! Even tho your life is one of envy I can fully understand how tiresome it can get living out of a suitcase and not being with your loved ones. Am sure you will be greeted with warm hugs and some wagging tails:)
Oh gosh, Lisa, I can't even begin to imagine what your hotel room is like, talk bout a master suite, eh? I personally would not like that big of a room(s) either if was alone but would be splendid if you had family and friends there with you.
Your dad, well, it is very human and very normal for him to be feeling this way, many of us go thru the "guilt" phase when we have our life back after being a caregiver. I am sure Nan is telling him ENJOY life, my son...I am smiling down upon you. May time help to ease his guilt and pain.
Huggles
Lori aka MissMyAngelSon
Enjoy your HUGE room, Lisa!!! LOL And I'm sure you can't wait to get back home!!! Have a great show!!! Much Love to you and your family <3 <3 <3
I am sure Kev & Charlie will be so happy to have you home, they must miss you a great deal when you are away!
How funny getting a hotel room as big as you described, I know what you mean about not liking the big room when you are by yourself it's better when you've got family to enjoy and share it with.
Can't wait to hear what you've got planned for your return to Australia I am so excited!
Take Care,
Lara
Hello Lisa! It's almost 4 am and I simply cannot sleep (not unusual these days). However, I'm going to the York show tonight (Yaaayy!) and I've even got a front row seat!! Can't wait! Yes, I've begged my family to 'come through' (SMILE!) as I am so lonely and desperate to hear from them, but no matter what...I know that I'll have a nice time and I need that.
I totally understand your mom & dad's feelings concerning your nan's passing. I took care of my mom, dad & step-pop (they were all bedridden) before they passed. & for 7 yrs I did nothing but caretake. That was my life. When the last one passed away (my step-pop) suddenly I was lost and guilt-ridden. "Did I do it all correct? Could I have done more?, etc etc etc" But I am slowly finding my way and starting anew.
Sorry to go on & on bending your ear...I really do need to find a 'confidante', don't I?
Take good care Lisa and God willing, I'll be seeing you TONIGHT!! Can't wait!
Namaste'
JUST ME~ Brenda from PA
"TO THE LOGICAL MIND, DEATH IS BUT ANOTHER GREAT ADVENTURE!"
Hi lisa, I love you.. Can you help me please? I don't speak english very well, I'm from switzerland.. With all my love..
OMG Lisa! Two whole months away from home....YUCK! If you've made it THAT long I'm sure 2 more days will be EAAAAAAAASY for ya, lol. Hang in there. Have some SPECTACULAR shows (which Im sure you will b/c well.....lets face it THEY ALL are, lol). Anhyow get some sleep. Im sending some healing thoughts to you and your fam.
much love,
Leeeeeeeeeeeessaaa! ;)
Just click your heals together three times and repeat: "There's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like home...." Well, it worked for Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz. You'll be home soon....and won't it be grand! Take care, Lisa.......peace.......deb t/illinois
Hi Lisa, I was at your Easton show. I was hoping to get a reading but did not-- but I think you referred to my son. You were giving someone else a reading-- the woman who had lost her first husband--her "prince charming." You said he wanted to give her a lock of his long hair, but he had very short hair, so the message must have been for someone else. I think that was my son! He had long hair and I've said I regret not getting a lock of it, so I think he was offering it to me. It was fun seeing you in person, you are very bubbly, just like on TV. I hope to see you again in Lowell this summer. You must be exhausted from all your travels and missing your family! Thank you for all you do to help people missing their loved ones!
Hi Lisa, I totally understand the missing the boys,furries and home. It's funny how when your going on vacation it's always so exciting, and then when you've been gone awhile can't wait to get home. Longest i have ever been gone is three weeks and it seemed like an eternity. Love the girlie car thing. I love sparkly shiny jewels. My daughter uses my Christmas Sweatshirts for a contest her friends have on who can dress the gaudiest at Christmas, (not sure how i feel about that) lololol
You rest up, not long til you'll be cuddling the fam. See you in Rockford....yayayayay
love Mary (margaret)
Hi Lisa,
I love the sound of your sparkly licence plate trim! I once tried to "girlie up" my car by hanging a cute little pink fairy with shiny wings off the mirror. But my husband sometimes drives my car and he didn't want to be seen with a stupid fluffy, feminine fairy dangling in the car! So, he ripped it off and the cord broke. I teased him for months after that, saying "You killed my fairy", everytime he got in the car with me! LOL, I made him "pay" for his horrendous act of cruelty! Hmm, I wonder if he'd notice if I got one of those sparkly licence plate trims!!!!! :)
I finally got my fix of your show last night on TV! I have missed the last 2 (or 3?) shows, due to much socialising and going out on the town! I hope Pay TV does a back to back run of your shows at the end of this series, so I can catch the ones I missed.
I had a smirk about you finding the hotel room too large. I bet it's not that often that a hotel receives a request from a celebrity for a SMALLER room!!! lol Nice to see you are still down to earth and being true to yourself! :)
Take care,
won't be long now till you're home.
from Deb R (one of the many Debs on here!) :-)
Two more sleeps ... Two more sleeps ...
No matter what luxury and fun we have when we travel, there's no place like home Dorothy. And it sounds like you'll have a lovely 'welcoming home' with your boys!
I know what you mean about the process of moving on. My Dad passed in January. Even though we knew it was coming, it isn't ever easy to lose a loved one. I find myself thinking of good times with him - and I smile, and send him light. He was ready. Thankfully, now he is out of pain at last.
Hugs, Laurel
Hey there Lisa,
Click your heels three times and say 'there's no place like home'...LOL.
The excitement of travel is awesome and fun but like you I start to feel home sick after a couple of weeks. Two months is a really long time to be away from your home and living out of a suitcase has to really suck after a while. Also, being alone has its merits but I would definitely feel lonely after a couple of days. You will be back home in no time...hang in there! You are almost there! You had me laughing about your hotel room. Damn, I don't blame you for wanting to change into a smaller space. Who needs all that crazy space??? Sounds like a space for a rockband and their groupies...LOL. What up with that one! We know you are a medium rockstar with Spirits always present but don't they realize they don't take up any space...LOL. Too funny!
Enjoy your sparkly license plate on your girlie mobile! Step aside Paris Hilton...there is a new girl in town! ;)
Lots of Hugs,
DS
I hope the next two days go quickly for you Lisa. You sound like you are really ready to go home. How sweet of Kev to see something you would enjoy. Hugs to your family when you return. I do hope your father will heal with time. I hope he knows he did all he could for your Nan.
Love and Aloha
Gail
Hi Lisa, I am so excited about your show tonight. I am so hoping you will be communicating with my deceased husband or my mom. I miss them both so much. I will be attending with my two daughters who are also anxious to see you. I know you are ready to go home and I don't blame you. Things will be great when you get there and can rest.
Take Care, Fran
Soon!! Hang in there!!
{{{hugs}}}
Hi Lisa.
I just want to wish you some relaxing days with your loved ones. Here in Norway spring has come, and the days are smiling :-)) I so hope that you once will have the opportunity to come to Norway.
Big Hug from Wensie
So glad your getting to go home to your home, husband, son and life......even when the experiences are wonderful---there is still no place like home.
We have an older home with lots of projects yet to be done....but it is still where I prefer to be!
Take care Lisa, again, it was wonderful meeting you in Easton!
Safe travels home.
Hugs,
Mary
I understand how your Dad feels. I lost my mother at 93 only March 23rd this year. Our family had done 24/7 shifts to make sure she could stay in her own home with my father. We succeeded in our goals-- but its very strange to have the time to myself again. I feel a bit guilty enjoying my time in my own home again and working on my own yard. Please tell him he is not alone in this. I wish I could hear her respond to me, but I believe she knows how very much I love her and my enjoying being home doesn't diminish that.