Time for Rebirth
Sunday, April 12, 2009 at 09:57PM Easter, it was 8 years ago that I baptised with Charlie on his first birthday and I never forget the vicar saying to me, this is a time when we all renew our faith and it's a time for rebirth as this was when Jesus was resurrected. Well it has a meaning for me as Charlie's birthday always falls around this time and I believe his soul was reborn and he was given to me as a total miracle child and for this I am eternally happy.
I always see, someones passing as a rebirth and so do the spirits. It's interesting how many spirits come to me and tell me it's their birthday and when I relay the message I actually find out that it is the anniversary of their passing.
Another soul was reborn, my grandmother. As many of you know who follow me regularly, my grandmother was ill. She was taken ill a few weeks before I headed to Australia and for a few weeks I had a crazy schedule and I headed over to Spain where my grandmother lived for almost 3 years with my parents. She sadly had cancer and she had never told anyone that she was suffering and was worried about her own health. This was an 86 year young woman who would chase Charlie around the garden and someone who was full of life and who was never ill except for the odd head cold.
Yes she was hard work and stuck in her ways and often created issues, but for me, for a long time growing up she was the one who mothered me, nursed me and played with me. She was the one that I could always turn to and the one that I could talk to about anything. She was my support and I was hers... we were like that until I moved to the US. She took care of Charlie when I had to do readings on a weekend and she cooked the most amazing bacon sandwiches!
I woke up with a start on Saturday morning and I told Kev that Nan was going to pass and I had this feeling all day and I even spoke to Jonesy about it, and at 7.30 I got the call. Nan had passed away. I was so thankful that I listened to my gut and headed over to see her before I went to Australia. We all knew it was coming but didn't realize just how quick it was. I did have a feeling that I would see her again, I just didn't realize it would be 2 hours after she had passed.
She stood there beautiful with my grandfather telling me she was happy. She never really was in any pain. And in true 'Josie form' she has continued to chat away all day, commenting on things and people. ha ha ha
But what she did was make a connection, I haven't spoken to my brother in 3 years, the reason is not something I will share here, but I finally made the call that I had been thinking about doing for a while... I called my brother today and in a strange way it was like chatting with an old school friend.
I think with any passing of someone who was suffering or ill for a while there is a sense of relief, and it is like that now, but I have the relief now for my parents who were really tied in so many ways... they can now start to have the life that they wanted, 3 years ago when they moved to Spain.
When I told Charlie he took it in his stride and never showed any real emotion about it, it was oh ok... can I play now... however I had been warning him for a while and he knows about spirits too, so he is aware, but we also had a surprise for him planned which would of course take his mind off it.
We organized a birthday party for Charlie and Mike. Their birthdays are one day apart, and because we are going to be away this week we decided to celebrate it early... it was great. Only a small number of friends came over, those who Mike and Charlie knew and we had a lovely time... chocolate birthday cake and champagne.. it was so much fun! Friends and Laughter are great for the soul.
After the events of the day we are all SO drained, I was surprised when Jonesy announced that she was heading to bed at 9.30 and everyone else followed... as per usual I am the one that is up and awake.... So I better hit the sack too.
Thanks for all those of you who have supported me through this time I have needed my family and my extended family have been there for me.
Big hugs and love to you all
Lisa xx
Reader Comments (75)
Sending my condolences Lisa for your Nan god bless her.
That's so amazing that she spoke to you just 2 hrs after her passing. So incredible!
Good on you for talking to your brother I bet you feel good to have just heard his voice even if there is tention between you both.
I enjoy reading your blogs!
God bless Nan....
Lara Haidary
Once again much love and hugz to you at this sad time...I am so glad your Nan came to you...thinking of you all....
I'm glad you talked to your brother...doesn't mean everything will be perfect but just the connection is enough for now...
I am so happy you had the party ... how wonderful and an early Happy Birthday to Charlie and Mike !!! Perfect for the soul...at a time when it is needed...
Love and hugz always...Sharon xoxo
Hi Lisa,
This is a hard time for you, but also a time for renewal. You may have a reconnection with your brother and that can be so healing for you both, and may lift a certain cloud that may have hung over both your lives. What wonderful symbolism to have so many important issues in your life center around resurrection and re-birth. I think it is a very good sign for your future. Bless your tender, loving heart and feel at peace!
Love always,
Cheryl
Our condolences during this time. We will be keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.
Take care,
Beth & Jean
My condolences Lisa, hoping only the best for your family and yourself, sending you also a LOT of positive energy, I know it's a very hard time but i guess you know more than most of us (you see it everyday) your nan is doing perfectly and very nicely :). My uncle past away 5 months and a little bit of cancer too, so did my aunt (they were a married couple) and she too passed away from cancer, very strange, she passed away about 2 weeks and a little bit, so i understand about you talking about having a "relief" after everything happens, we always hope they are doing just fine :).
Wishing you all the best and thank you so much for sharing this little part of you with us.
Take care,
Vi
Hi Lisa, I lost a couple of days, so I'm happy to read your vacation ended so nicely, & you all had safe travels home..Wow quite a vacation, I'm feeling the jet lag too :) So sorry to read about your Nan, bless her soul...She probably couldn't wait to connect with you... May her new journey be wonderful.......Happy early birthday Charlie & Mike.. Charlie my BD is on the 22nd & will be seeing your mom in Syracuse, how cool is that...I'm excited :) I hope you all had a wonderful Easter..Good friends & family, there's nothing better....Big hugs to you & yours Lisa, love you bunches...themauder
Lisa,
I wanted to mention: my son lost his Godmother when he was a bit younger than Charlie; when I told him she had passed, he stared out the window for a few minutes and then resumed doing whatever he had been doing. It isn't a lack of concern, or love for the person who has gone on; I think everyone processes things in different ways, and expresses their grief in their own unique ways. Kids may start feeling insecure, worrying about the safety of those they love, have nightmares, etc. My son used to wake up at night and talk as if he was awake, but he really was asleep. He said the most hateful things to his father and me, but he never remembered any of it the next day. I knew he was letting out his grief in this way, because he was never the type to express his feelings openly. When I went to my husband's memorial I was dry eyed and just going through the motions. My mother-in-law thought I was being cold, and uncaring, but that couldn't have been further from the truth! I had already cried, howled, and in complete despair, and was now a numb nothing. We are just so unique as to how we deal with our losses, but what we all have in common is that we all can use understanding, love and compassion. I am speaking of my own experiences and expressing them to help anyone who can relate.
Take care,
Cheryl
Hi Lisa xoxoxo Thank you for sharing such special times and memories of your Nan with us, I had to chuckle at how she would chase Charlie in the garden, lol
I am not at all surprised that she has already visited you from the spirit world, how lovely that she is letting you know she is happy and with loved ones.
Lisa, I do hope you and your brother can mend whatever the issue is that caused the rift. I am sincerely glad you called him and I am sure he was very happy to hear from you even tho the two of you have been at odds with one another. No doubt your parents are very happy that the two of you are talking.
Happiest of Bdays to Charlie, the party sounds lovely, ohhhh choccy cake and champagne, wooo hoooooooooo
Lisa, can you post some pics of your Nan here as I would love to see this lovely lady.
Huggles
Lori aka missmyangelson
My thoughts are with your Nan and your family!
Rachel Hodson
Sending all my love to you and your family Lisa.
Sending big shell hugs your way
Hi Lisa,
Really glad you made the connection with your Nan and also straight away just after she passed,it shows how strong the bond between you and her was and will even becom more stronger thru her rebirth.
I am also happy that she is with your Grandfather and that your Nan is happy.I had to laugh also how you mentioned your Nan who was in her 80's and chasing Charlie what a wonder woman!!
Its great too and I know how you feel when you spoke with your brother after 3 years,I had the same problem too and hadnt spoken to one of my brothers and that was 47 years later and when I found him and rang him too it was strange at first also as he left home when I was seven years old.
Charlies birthday party sounded like fun with the cake,bubbly & laughter!! Happy Birthday to Charlie & Mike as well.
One last thing I would like to say every time now I make a BACON BUTTY I will think of your Nan and you too of course lol !!!
((((( Hugz )))))
Maureen xoxoxoxoxoxo
Lisa this is the news that we have all been waiting for and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. It is funny how we all deal with death differently. Grieving is a natural part of life but some feel it harder than others. I always thought that I was callous and uncaring (even though I did care) when I heard of a passing in my circle of family and friends as I would not have the strong emotional tug that others describe.
It was when I started to explore my spiritual side that I realized that it was my unwavering belief in the afterlife that kept me from going to pieces as I was certain that the person had passed to a better place and was much happier but of course it was impossible to express this to those who were left behind and who were hurting so badly.... It is wonderful to be part of the Lisa family where we understand each other so well and can express our true selves. We grieve for ourselves and our loss and to those reading this who are in pain I send huge hugs and prayers for closure and peace of mind.
Hmm do you think your Nan will give you some space now she has open access to see you lol..... It is wonderful that she came through so quickly and that you have the ability to communicate with her in this way. Tell your mum & dad not to beat themselves up! Have a wonderful Easter Monday and roll those eggs down the hill with gusto.
Hugs and love, Hazel xx
Hi Lisa
I am sure that getting to see your Nan before you left for Australia was a big help to you. To regret not seeing her would have made it much harder.
Thinking of you all and hope you keep well.
S
x
Dear Lisa
i wish to send you my condolences....to you and your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your nan.
As i am orthodox and our easter is next week....I will definately be lighting a candel for you, your husband, Charlie and your nan.
God bless
Daniella
Dear Lisa . Again so sorry for your loss...I am so happy that you reconnected with your brother..I don't know if you remember when I told you in Boston..how I was reunited with my brother and sister after 34 years.. and then losing my brother a year later..it made me realize how important family is and how quickly it can change.. I was bitter for awhile after learning about them ..not having been raised together..but realized that we have to live in the moment..I'm so grateful I got to have my brother for a year and my sister and I could not be any closer..I Love her dearly .. Love to you and yours.. Gary P.S. Hope your enjoying the L.W. Teddy bear I made for you ..
Dear Lisa,
I'm new to your extended family. I'm from Australia and I am so glad you and your Family had a great time here.
I'm so sorry to hear that your Grandma passed away. The relationship that we have with our Grandparents is a special one. It is a treasured link that can never be broken.
Best Wishes
Ann
Strange that i am lost for words Lisa?..I always have plently to say..lol..I guess i am just thinking about what you said here, and i am going to leave with those important thoughts you mentioned.Thank you.....Happy Birthday To my little man Charlie, give him big hugs please? And to Mike.. Happy Birthday to all.....Love Stace XXX
Awww sorry to hear about your nan... my thoughts are with you and your family. Nice of her to visit and let you know she's happy and with your grandfather :-) It must help put your mind at ease- help with the grieving process etc.
Glad to hear you had such a lovely birthday celebration for Charlie- kids birthdays are always fun... but very tiring lol.
I love reading your blogs... I think your absolutely amazing that you ensure you make time for your fans- sharing your personal life experiences and stories with us! Thank you!
HAPPY EASTER!
Hugs, Love & Kisses
<3 Colette xxxx
Lisa, you and your family are in my prayers. ~hugs Rosalie~
peace to you and your family.......Happy Birthday to Charlie and Jonesy!...deb t/illinois
I am sending a BIG hug your way Lisa. I am going through similar experiences with my Grandma at the moment. Much love to you and your family. You continue to lift my soul with your blog and your show. Your proof that angels walk amongst us.
- Mark - xo
That was a lovely posting Lisa, you really captured so many things going on with your life right now, so much hope. It really is bittersweet with your Grandmothers passing. Im glad she came through to show you she was happy. I hope your parents heal in time and enjoy the freedom they have now.
Glad you got in touch with your Brother...i havent spoken to mine for 6 years so i understand you....im happy it went well for you.
love and hugs as always xx
Lisa , Sending you so much love and energy today . So many emotions and feelings in one day to deal with .I am so happy to hear Nan came to you with your grandfather and eased some of your sadness . Charlie must have sensed she was ok too and just carried on with his fun and play . Big hugs to you today !
Ohhh Happy Birthday out to Charlie and Mike....I did not realize until I noticed someone mention it lastnight...HUGS.
Lisa, Love ya girl, as always, what a great post. I am glad you got that connection to your nan...:). She is at a good place now !
Sending you big hugs
Atmosphere
HI Lisa,
Sorry to hear about your Grandmothers passing, Our thoughts are with you and your family.
Please wish Charlie a very happy birthday, Hope he and his freind had a wonderful day. Hope you have settled back in at home after you trip here to Australia. I would like to thank yourself, Kev and Charlie for what you did for the victorian fire victiums.
Myself and my freind Vandra enjoyed your show in Melbourne on the 30th march.
Look forward to seeing you hopefully in september in Adelaide.
Keep your chin up and keep smiling
Lots of hugs.
Love Leeanne and family. xxx