Day of Preparation - Preparing for the inevitable
Wednesday, March 4, 2009 at 12:09AM My poor grandmother, psyched herself up and didn't sleep all night ready for her scan today. My dad and mom arrived as they were wheeling her out... the scanning machine had broken. So everyone was waiting with baited breath for the results, winding ourselves up and we have to go through it all tomorrow.
The scan is booked for 10am, which means in an hour from now!
My grandfather came to visit me last night, and normally he comes and I never 'see' him, I know it's him and I hear his voice, but last night I 'saw' him! He is telling me he is with my nan and making sure her transition is a good one. I believe she is ready but hanging on. She is not eating and I know what she is like, she will be boasting about how much weight she has lost and she will be getting her 22-inch waist back. I put together a collage of pictures of Charlie and the family for her which I will take with me and also Charlie has given one of his cuddly toys to her, and drawn her a 'get well soon' picture.
He asked me today, if she was going to die in hospital? I never lie to him, no matter what he asks. I did tell him I didn't know but it was possible that she may die. He didn't seem fazed by it, but when I reminded him about Gran Nanny's gift, he ran off immediately and got his package together. His first dealing of death was his hamster. I had to tell him and he was devastated, he cried for a while. It's still a memory that he holds with him but he knows that everyone is safe when then pass as they are with Grandpa, Joey and Furry (Hamster).
He knows that spirits are happy and that we all die and that we are all together again someday. Of course he has to process it, but he deals with it, in such a spiritual way. I am so very proud of him.
So tomorrow I will pack 3 cases, one for the tour one for Spain to be with my family and then I might as well pack for Australia too while I am at it, which is going to be 2 days after I arrive back from Spain. Nothing like living out of a suitcase eh!
But Kev and I sat here tonight booking our Australia trip... we have everything booked except for Ayers Rock, but that is in hand... and we just can't wait. What an amazing time we are going to have. I am very excited that all 4 shows are sold out, but don't worry I will be back later in the year, and I have a feeling it will be a place that will feel like home!
Big Hugs to you all
Lisa xx
Reader Comments (33)
Hi Lisa,
Speaking of coming to Australia-I was so shattered that i missed out on tickets-here's hoping you visit us again soon. I will stay connected through your blog. Safe travels.
Bestest wishes
Kim
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa......have a safe trip. It's all in God's hands now.....peace to you and your family and especially to Nan.....deb t/illinois
Hi Lisa,
Best wishes all the way. I'm so excited your coming to Australia, I watch your show and it is my favourite show of all time, your amazing and can't wait to see you soon. :)
Kim...where are you located? I may (no promises) have a spare ticket through good fortune..
b
I'm sorry that you and your family are going through so much heartache with your Grandmother being sick, i remember when you mentioned your Grandad came through when your (Uncle?) passed recently so it sounds like her time is coming and i am sorry to hear that.
On a happier note it is wonderful that your shows have sold out in Australia!! That is amazing, they will love you there and so i am pleased you are going.....an amazing experience for you all to visit the country i am sure!
Take care xx
Hi my love,
Safe travels when you head to Spain. Charlie is so grown up isn't he?! I am so proud of him Lisa, I know you and Kev are. Give your Nan a big hug fir me when you see her. I have a feeling she is holding on until she sees you! SO, DON'T be surprised if she goes short;y after. You know, you can always come back to us to jst vent if need be. Doo enjoy yourself anf have a safe journey. My love to all ,my sweets, especially to you.
stay well and warm. And get plenty of rest when you can.
Love ya lots, Mary
Ahhhh many blessings.......
Safe journey Lisa and family.
Big giant hugs too
God Bless,
Peg8293
Bonjour!
Thanks for news...
I lost my Nan in November, and even if she had 93 years old... The separation with people who loved will always be very difficult even if we know they will be okay ... My thoughts are with you. Well presently, you seem to be in a big wave of emotions with your travel and your Nan. Good Luck!
Have a good day and take a deep breath... ( :
Amicalement,
Pascale
xx
Lisa,
I am so sorry about your grandma. My heart goes out to all of you. I bet she will come to you as your grandpa did.
You might think about having Charlie write her a letter, it could help him but if she is anything like my grandma she will love reading it and her face will light up with the joy of reading his words. Nothing more personal than a letter..
So glad to hear that your shows sold out! Have a safe trip and know that we are all sending our love to your gram and family..
Lisa,
It's just me again. I know what your going through, I lost my Nana 1 year ago this past Feb. 19th. I know that she was ready and I accepted that, she passed at home in the most peaceful way I have ever seen. I never said goodbye, just a quick I'll see you again soon was my my choice of word's, I know she liked that. My kid's were another thing, they too understand death and the spirit world, what was hard for them was that they would never see her in person again. There's nothing to prepare you for the loss of a loved one, no matter how ready you think you are. I'm so sorry that Charlie has to go through this some what new experience, I know it's not a pleasent one and I wish for him all the courage and love he need's to make it through this.
All my love to you and the family,
Muffie
WoW...bet it's amazing to see...actually seeeee your grandfather!!! Very cool!!! You probably have mixed emotions about your Nan, huh?!?! Knowing that your grandpa is helping her make her transition is comforting, but knowing that the time is close...sad :( She'll be glad to see him again!! Charlie's so cute...and so in touch w/ spirituality..more so than the average grown-up...he is so special!! I think it helps the healing process to have a better understanding of what happens when someone you love passes...and he does...Furry is waiting for Nan too!! Bless him!!! Big Hugs..and congrats on the sold-out shows!!
Dear, Oh! dear!
Grandma is waiting for you... you are the connection through it all... I surely know what is the experience of loosing a love one and from that I have learn that you got to find the way to tell the person everyting in your heart! My thought are with you and your family Lisa!
Tell me, when are you coming to Montreal (Quebec, Canada)?
Need to see you badly!
Great respect...Sylvie
You know Lisa... no matter how much we know that they will pass into loving and waiting arms... it doesn't ease our pain ... the physical pain of wanting to hold them... rub their head... hold their hand and ease their fears... If only we had a magic wand... but the fact of the matter is that we all come here with a purpose... along with that purpose is an expiration date... some longer then others... but none more important or less important... our journeys are unique... without any doubt whatsoever.... there is a man who is patiently waiting with his arms wide open.... You are a beautiful grandaughter and all that you do surely doesn't go unnoticed!!!!
Hugs....I will continue to keep you all in my prayers!!!!
Theresa
You and your family are in our prayers. This blog has helped me today, as always, to deal with my own situation. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us.
Hey Lisa,
Finally have some down time here at work so I can write and play on your site. As I said on your Twitter, it is truly beautiful that your grandfather is going to be with your nan through her transition. It must be so comforting to know that she will be taken under his wings. It is also wonderful how Charlie is able to process death from a Spiritual perspective. That is so awesome that a child his age can do this. It is so healthy the way you handle things with him. You should really be proud of yourself as a mother because so many children are shut out and they rely on external information which can be quite scary if not explained. Your relationship is priceless and my hat goes off to you... well I don't do hats so I will have to borrow one of yours...LOL!
So happy packing, lord knows you have had a lot of practice! Keeping you and your family in my prayers.
Lots of Hugs, DS
Hi Lisa,
Safe travels to you and your family!!! Have the best time with your family, even though it can be a challenge when you know that someone close to your heart is ill!!! But hey at least your going to see her and you know your Grandfather is there for her. Much Love <3 to you and your family!!!
Lisa,
My 88 year old mother is getting near her transition time also. She's lost a lot of weight - down to 90 pounds. I understand that towards the end people just have no appetite.
I'll keep your Nan in my prayers that her transition is gentle. Please say a prayer for my Mom, Lisa.
Love,
Jeanette
Sending you and your family much love, comfort and energy !
I am also dealing with my Mom in this way and now Jean with her Dad who just had a stroke. Oh Lisa we know so much about death and dying..but it's still difficult isn't it. It's still a journey of the heart & Soul.
Love & Hugs,
Andrea
Have a good visit with your family, Lisa. I know they'll be so happy to see you, and even though your grandmother's transition, whenever it comes, will be painful for everyone, it must be comforting to have heard from your grandfather that he is right there to meet her.
Have a safe trip.
Janet in NC
i am very sorry about your grandmother our thoughts are with you........lot of luv and light sent your way....
no matter what we seems toknow it is still difficult......your son is great kid and verybrave send him an etra hug from us.......luv carol
Hi Lisa , just read your twitter message that Nan had the scan . I am sending you all my love and lots of healing thoughts for the diagnosis .
Stay strong and know we all are here for you .Love to your family too !
Love , janet b.
hope all goes well
{{{hugs}}}
Lisa,
Much love and warmth to you, Kev, Charlie and your family. Godspeed to your Nan, Lisa. Have a safe trip!
Donna
Awwww big hugz once again for your Nan...and all of you at this time...
I am still sad that I am unable to see you, here in Australia, after waiting soooooooo long, lolol but it wasnt meant to be...hoping that I will see you next time !!! I have been to Uluru (Ayers Rock) and I was lucky enought to climb it !!! Back when it was possible...althought it was THE most exhausting thing I have ever done !!! You will have the most wonderful time and I am glad you will be back !!! xoxoxo
Lisa, my heart is breaking reading about your Nan. I was so hoping for a better outcome but after reading this it does sound like she is ready for transistion, bless her heart. Please know I am surrounding you and your family with genuine love and compassion as I know this is a very emotional time for you. Loss is the most painful thing we will ever endure, no matter how much we think we are ready for it and know it is coming. Lisa, please give Nan a gentle hug for me when you see her and tell her how dearly she is loved by all of us.
Hugs
Lori aka missmyangelson
We are all praying for you and your family at this time!!!
(((HUGS)))
SHERI from MN