What should I do with my life? I am not happy, but I don't know what I need or want. I feel like I have been struggling and fighting all my life, and I'm really tired. I am trying to meditate almost every day, some of my friends are trying to heal me, and I use pendulums and crystals, and sometimes angel cards. I am 25, and I already feel tired, lonely and depressed. What is my mission for my life? Sometimes I get angry with my grandmother who passed away and I shout at her for failing to protect me. Ida, Norway.
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Hi Ida, firstly please don’t be angry with your grandmother, because it was her time to pass. We have lessons that we have to learn and those lessons are ours and they are not for anyone else, so it’s not your grandmother's fault, however I can tell you that she is watching you from spirit and she is trying to help you. But with that said, you are not helping yourself. You have negative energy around you and it needs to be dispersed. I am going to suggest that you take a break from pendulums, and cleanse all your crystals, and go for walks outside, without a phone and just BE in nature. I am also going to suggest that you sage the home where you live and that will help lift the energy.
Take a daily walk for the next two and look at everything around you and take note of the trees and the nature, look at the birds…everything that is around. Then after that I would like you to start meditating and you will find that everything is going to start to feel better. If you can within that two weeks limit your media contact, such as TV, facebook etc… and any negative friends that you may have, all of these can feed the negativity. I know that this will help you but only if you are determined! Good luck, Lisa xx